There are things that we will never understand. Life has a way of kicking you in the teeth... even when you're down already.
I know people think that 4 months is just long enough for everyone to think I should already be over my dad's death... but, in my experience, that is just not the case. I'm not saying that I haven't adjusted to the pain... but I AM saying that the pain doesn't lessen... I just adapt to it.
Some have called it pathetic... but either way, it's my way of grieving... not theirs. They still have their dad.