UnMerry Christmas

I am still unemployed. I can't stand the feeling that I cannot provide for my daughter like I should be able to. It cuts me to the deepest part of my soul. I can't do anything about it though... I have applied and reapplied to every job that I could possibly think of... yes, even McDonald's... no dice.

I guess this is just something that I am going to have to endure for a little while longer. I have no idea what to do at this point. Olivia will not be getting anything but a package of silly bands from me... this sucks.

Plenty of Worries

Ray

No More Singing Phone Number

I don't like change. I never have. I don't even like it when it's time to move the furniture around at holiday time. It almost unnerves me. Today, I was going to make a phone call and I was surprisingly routed to T-Mobile. They said that there was "high usage" on my account so they needed to speak with me. This came as a HUGE surprise to me. I didn't do anything that I didn't normally do this month... I just paid the bill... what in the world could be the problem?

I speak to someone and they tell me why my account has been suspended... wait, suspended? What the heck for? They tell me that all the international calls are adding up and I need to make a 25% payment for my phone (and the 4 other lines on the account) to be turned back on. ABORT MISSION!!! WHAT INTERNATIONAL CALLS? I was going to make a joke about the only international calls that I make are when I call the Medicaid office and I am outsourced... but I was in freak out mode... so I decided to leave that part out of it.

The customer service rep then explained the calls and the light bulb went off in my head... I had let someone use my phone to call someone in the army... WHO KNEW THEY WERE IN AFGHANISTAN??? So, he threw the total out there and my heart broke.

I have had my phone number for a long time... I like it... it's easy to remember... you can almost sing a song when reciting it... 352... 678.... 7874.... But that was about to change....

"Rachel, the total is $2900... but I can get that down to $2400 for you today." He might as well have said a million dollars. I am now trying to figure out what I am going to do. I have filled out soooo many applications for jobs and NOW THE NUMBER IS WRONG!!! I don't have a house phone...

Needless to say, I don't think I will ever let anyone touch my phone again... I guess I am going to have to go with AT&T but the problem is that WE JUST PAID THE CURRENT BILL!!! I COULD HAVE KEPT THE $269!!!

Moral of the story? I would rather move furniture every single day... than have this happen.

No Worries

Ray

Zero Comments

Well, I was keeping up with this journal at first. I was writing in it at least once a day. I looked forward to the comments that I got on a variety of topics. But, life got a little crazy. My internet got shut off for a bit because I didn't have the money to pay it... and then when I got connected again, I had college and job hunting to do... so, I neglected this poor page.

I started to notice though... because I got to vent some of the most personal thoughts that someone can have. It started to bother me... so, I tried my hand at it again. I started writing again. This time it was different. I posted my journal entry onto my facebook page and I would feverishly check the comment section... nope... nothing.

So, after a few entries went by like that-- I figured that no one was reading it. Then again, I also get a hit counter and was positive that no one was. How could I be so dumb? I finally found something that I enjoyed... I found something that made me feel like I was connected to more than the fat on my... well, my everywhere....

Moral of the story? When you find something that does well for you and you neglect it... don't expect it to work anymore.

No Worries

Ray